Viola Odette Harlow is on the rise. Her second record, Main Character, was listed Best Albums of 2023 by Rolling Stone. But following a series of visits to the ICU, she was diagnosed with Prinzmetal angina, a rare and unpredictable form of heart disease. The symptoms she'd been experiencing suddenly had a name, and the trajectory of her life was altered forever.

In her debut collection of poetry, prose, and porn, Harlow lays bare the grief, pain, anger, and joy that permeates her experience with chronic illness. She undergoes an endless stream of appointments, examinations, and diagnoses. She talks to her animals. She yearns for Old Hollywood. She takes naked pictures to sell to men on the internet. This book traces the end of one kind of life, a life filled with rehearsals and stages and costumes and all sorts of performance, to another filled with emergency, disbelief, acceptance, and resilience.

Featuring full-color (and full-frontal) photography by Richie Lee Davis, Manny Liotta, and Ryan Harlow.

Viola Odette Harlow started acting at age 6 playing Shirley Temple on Broadway. She tap danced 17 years all the way to a wheelchair. She's currently a porn star who dreams of bringing back the great American musical.

150 pages.