NOT BABY

Carson Jordan

god woke me up last night

big fan of gesture

love sucks, sucker

wide awake

a love letter to vices

bottomless bully porn

not nice sober

not nice hungover

Nice Girl or Cunt

sweet sugar sapphed

that martini ballerina

not bragging for shit

have to touch yourself

go on and get

GOOD FRIDAY

Carson Jordan

it took so much loss

to find standing room in peace

freed myself from

starting shit again

life is turbulent enough

you know,

I am

Doll parts

I love the word several

several years of partying

several playmates left

several times a villain

several pounds of flesh

do you remember when Snooki

cried wolf on the beach

“I’m a fucking

good person”

I’ll save the water works

for another day

do you like my body?

do you want some money?

I can make it hard for anyone

I can suck all the air out of a room

but can we talk about feeling good

can we talk about it

can we talk about me

on the trail there’s a sign

temple of love

ruin garden

outlaw,

church is everywhere

Carson Jordan is a poet and former outlaw living in Brooklyn, NY. Her first chapbook, GOOD FOR HER, came out with Dirt Child Press in 2022.

Find her on Instagram @cahhhhson or Twitter @missjarsoncordan.