candy
Belinda Cai
small and circular,
adult smarties
sliced down the middle
mostly yellow, a few orange
a color blind test in the tube
what if I chewed them all up and melted into this mattress?
melted
melted
melted straight into heaven
they don’t leave a lump in the throat
they go down smooth
you took them first
because you went to the hospital
a few times
dad talked about how the peanut
sweets were your favorite
and he’d buy them for you on dates
I don’t know when I’ll stop eating candy
I loved it as a child
was addicted to the taste
and I love it now
Belinda Cai is an L.A.-based writer, poet, leftist intersectional feminist, amateur musician, national park lover, ambivert, lava lamp enthusiast, total Aries and Highly Sensitive Person. Her latest poetry collection is titled, “Mommy Issues.”